Moving Through Darkness…
There are countless guides on how to navigate a dark night of the soul, endless lists of what to do and what not to do. But healing is not a checklist, and transformation does not come with a roadmap.
I am not here to tell you what you should do.
I am here to share what I have lived, what has broken me open, and what has stitched me back together. My journey may not be yours, but somewhere in these words, I hope you will find a reflection, a spark, a remembrance of something deep within you longing to be reclaimed.
Because here’s the truth: the dark night of the soul is not a punishment. It is an initiation.
It strips away the illusions, the old identities, the inherited stories that no longer serve you. It asks you to sit in the silence, to meet your shadows, to witness the echoes of generations past. It calls you home.
The Threshold of Transformation: Why the Dark Night of the Soul Comes for Us
At 27, I stand at an intersection. To some, I am still young—figuring out life, stumbling through lessons, learning how to trust myself again. To others, I have crossed into adulthood, where responsibilities take root, and choices start to shape the next decade of my life.
It’s a strange space to exist in—the space between who I was and who I am becoming.
And for many of us, this is where the dark night of the soul begins.
It does not come softly. It does not ask permission.
It is the voice that whispers, “This is not who you are.”
It is the ache in your bones, the grief that moves through you like a tidal wave, the unraveling of everything you once held as true.
It is the sensation of standing in front of a door you cannot see, knowing you can never go back to what once was.
And in this space, we are given a choice:
Will we break the cycles that were never ours to carry?
Will we meet the pain that was passed down through generations and choose differently?
Will we step out of the identity shaped by survival and into one shaped by truth?
Because here is what I have come to understand:
The dark night of the soul is not here to destroy you. It is here to free you.
It is the fire before rebirth. The storm before stillness. The invitation to lay down what is heavy so that you may finally step into what is light.
The Path of Healing: Unraveling the Past
The dark night of the soul is not just about personal pain—it is about the stories, wounds, and karmic patterns we have inherited. We carry more than we realize. Our pain is not just our own—it is woven into the lineage we come from, passed down like an unspoken heirloom.
We live with:
The grief of our ancestors, carried in our bones.
The unfulfilled dreams of those who came before us.
The silence of those who were not allowed to heal, whose stories were left unfinished.
And when we enter a dark night of the soul, we are not just healing ourselves—we are healing the generations that came before us.
1. The Illusion of Fixing Ourselves
For years, I sought healing through prescription medication, therapy, and external validation. I wanted someone to tell me I wasn’t broken. I wanted someone to fix what felt fundamentally wrong within me.
By 15, I was prescribed antidepressants and anxiety medication. By 20, I had a list of diagnoses: ADD, ADHD, OCD. I cycled through therapists, through pills, through moments of feeling almost okay before crashing back into myself again.
And then, I realized something:
I was waiting for someone else to heal me when all along, healing had been waiting for me to choose it.
This is the first step in karmic healing—the willingness to reclaim what we have given away. To stop waiting for something outside of us to change and to step into the knowing that we are the alchemists of our own becoming.
2. The Dissociation That Keeps Us Safe (And Stuck)
For most of my life, I was a stranger to myself. Memories were blurry, entire years of my childhood dissolved into a fog.
It wasn’t just that I had forgotten—I had severed ties with the parts of myself I didn’t want to hold. The girl who was bullied, the girl who didn’t know how to say no, the girl who struggled with worthiness, with safety, with being seen.
Dissociation was my net. My protection. My way of surviving.
But survival is not the same as living. And at some point, the body begins to call back what was lost.
Healing meant reclaiming the parts of me I had abandoned. It meant stepping into the memories, the pain, the shadows—not to stay there, but to bring them home.
This is what ancestral healing asks of us—to stop running. To stop exiling the emotions and experiences we inherited. To witness them, to integrate them, to release them with grace.
Breaking the Cycle: Karmic Healing & Reclaiming Power
1. Holistic Healing & The Medicine of the Body
When I finally turned inward, I stopped trying to numb the symptoms and started listening to their messages.
Reiki unraveled the knots in my nervous system, allowing me to move through generational trauma with gentleness.
Yoga taught me how to step into my body and out of my mind.
Hypnotherapy guided me into the depths of my subconscious, where my most deeply rooted wounds were waiting to be seen.
Naturopathy helped me understand that my physical health was deeply interwoven with my emotional and energetic state.
Oracle & tarot readings illuminated the unseen, giving me language for what I had yet to fully understand.
This is the work of reassociation—bringing the fragments of ourselves back together, piece by piece, breath by breath.
2. Moving Forward with Intention
Healing is not linear. Some days, I feel empowered and free, as though I have cracked open a door to something luminous and boundless. Other days, I feel the old weight creeping back in, whispering doubts, trying to pull me into the familiar comfort of what once was.
But now, I know the difference.
I know when it is my past calling me backward. I know when my ego resists change. And I know that fear is not a stop sign—it is an invitation.
To step forward anyway.
To trust in what I cannot yet see.
To release with grace, so that I may receive with ease.
This is the power of karmic healing—the willingness to rewrite the narrative, to untangle what was never truly ours, to move with intention, not repetition.
Are You Ready to Heal?
If you find yourself here, reading these words, perhaps your soul is whispering to you.
Perhaps it is time to stop waiting. To stop holding on to what has already asked to be let go. To stop believing that healing is something outside of you, when in truth, it is something only you can claim.
If you are ready to take this step—
To release the past.
To heal the wounds that are not yours to carry.
To step into the light of your own becoming.
You are not meant to be bound by the past. You are meant to transmute it into something beautiful, something free, something that belongs to you alone.
With love, Emily Rose
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
I'm Emily Rose
Karmic & Ancestral Healing Guide
I am here to walk beside you—as a gentle companion, witness, & guide—as you find your way back to yourself. I understand the ache of disconnection, the weight of old stories holding you back. True healing isn’t rushed; it unfolds slowly, like a steady breath, inviting you to embrace the tender parts of yourself that have long awaited care. With a unique blend of somatic healing, energy therapy, hypnosis, art, NLP, & compassionate presence, I offer a space where you are fully seen & met without judgment. Many who come to me have longed to be truly held in their truth. Here, you are understood, honored, & supported on your path to transformation.
